I recently had this beautiful dream, once that happened in reality and the feeling was missing for a while now. It was love, in a time where I was questioning what’s life, and what's love after all and this dream helped me love once again.
It was a lawn, very near to beach, like in Greece, I have never been to Greece, but I have seen such a place in the movies. Couple of white structures, one behind and another near to the beach. It was mildly sunny evening, the sun was planning to jump off the horizon, and I saw a girl, she was having a slender frame, hairs were not so straight, nor curly either, it was a perfect though, the face was slightly oval with a medium sharp chin, the eyes were attractive like a black moor in middle of a golden fish.
Her voice, to hear her voice you probably have to put your ears near her lips, soft and gentle. She pulled her hairs on her ears and tucked it behind, she bent down and looked at me from afar. I was pulled into a wormhole, flying and rotating, I realized that I’m in a dream. I went lucid right away.
She got such a stare, the eyes are locked into your eyes and deeper into you mind and soul. It feels like a plug has been inserted into a socket and sparkles are flying away. This is new, I figured she was friendly and she probably feels the same way as me. While we began walking separately, she slowly walked along with me and gave a stare again and walked to her villa. “Here I am”, she said.
I could not believe that someone in my dream calling a stranger to their place. She walked into the door and one of her friends walked out. “Come in” she said, with a simple sweet smile with a blink in her eyes, which I could feel as if the world has become slower than the usual reality's speed.
I have heard that when someone has met an accident, they see the event in slow motion, remembering every single detail that happened, I don’t think I have fallen into an accident, yet I feel the same, but at the same time, I could feel euphoric and filled with love. I walked towards the door and signed her to sit with me on the stairs outside.
It’s an evening with darkness taking over the golden hue, giving everything a grayish silver tint. The clouds grew darker, I could see her eyes shining with whiteness of the moon that was peaking out from a thin sheet of clouds, she floated and sat next to me, quite close to me with her hairs fallen to protect her from not showing her face to me, but she intently pushed her hairs to the back of her ears, and gave me the same dreamy stare once again.
“I thought these things happen only in movies or dreams, but here it happened. I don’t know what to call this feeling.”, she whispered.
“I thought these things happen only in movies or dreams, but here it happened. I don’t know what to call this feeling.”, she whispered.
I gently threw away what exactly was in my mind, and uttered “Love?”, and closed my lips with my finger, but I couldn’t stop there, “But, this is just a dream.” and smiled at her.
The cloudy sky began to laugh and melt into cooler droplets, falling after a warm gentle summer heat. The season change was visible in the each droplets that were falling from the above. But the rain falling wasn’t audible, it was muffled.
“Yeah, I know", she nodding to me, "yeah, you are in my dream”, she looked at me again with a smile, that showed that she was very confident that it was her dream and I’m one of her dream character. “After all what is a dream and what is reality anyway?”, she opened her arms and looked at the rain drops falling on the road.
A sudden breeze appears out of nowhere, dragging some of the droplets with it, splashing in my face, all I wanted was a peaceful dream and not a deep existential thoughts, but I went with the flow. I walked out to the road while it was still raining, but not a single droplet fell on me, “This is my dream, I can simply stop this rain with just a clap” I did a double clapped, as if I was calling a waiting in a restaurant, the rain immediately stopped.
She walked towards me, which felt like she was floating, she put her arms open, looking at the clear sky, there were no clouds, I looked up along with her, I could see a full moon and tiny edges of another moon near to the eastern horizon. She blinked her eyes slowly, and the rain came falling and I got drenched completely and still could feel the tiny droplets falling on my forehead. I was very sure it was my dream, “How could you do this in my dream?”
“You think it’s your dream, I think it’s mine, but does that really matters? Why don’t we walk and be in the moment, in love, just spreading this love to everyone.” She held my hands, pulled me to walk with her, she looked ahead and the lawn disappeared, and a path appeared which was leading into a forest.
I was little hesitant, It could be a dark entity, which is leading me into darkness and hell, capturing my soul permanently into a box filled with more darkness. “Who are you? why should I walk with you?”
It's as if she heard my mind, she replied, “I’m not a dark entity, and not going to push you into a box of darkness.”, and turned towards me, taking and holding both my hands in front of her. I didn’t feel the darkness in anyway, I could just feel unconditional love. “I may look young, but I can be your mother, your sister, your lover, your wife or your friend, or just your feminine side, or maybe I am the real one and you are just a dream character in my head.”
“So, you don’t know either?”, I asked.
“Why do you think I have all the answers?”, she said it with calmness.
“Because, I could feel that you could be my subconscious. Tell me who you are!”, I asked.
“Walk with me, I’ll tell you what I know, but it isn’t something that you don’t know.”, she insisted that I need to walk with her, I couldn’t deny, but walk slowly matching the speed of her floating foot steps.
“I believe in a theory, I don’t know if there is one or similar theory that’s been circulated in your world, if you are really real. I believe in a dream-reality-realm theory.” She stopped and with a serious tone, nodding by looking into my eyes deeply, “What I’m going to tell you about the theory is probably going to look like a bad explanation, but it’s probably the best explanation that I can give based on my understand and experiences.”, she wanted me to assert her to continue, I could see that on her face.
“Okay, I have seen and heard weird things in my dream, you can go on.”, I swinged my hand to silently say, you can go on.
“I generally try to find if the other person in my dream is just a dream character in my head or a real person in my dream from a different world.”, she stopped, so I could respond.
I couldn’t keep quiet, I was excited. “Finding person from different world?”
“Yeah, making them vanish, you know in dream, you can make the dream character vanish from the scene.”, she paused a bit to show her sadness in the corner of her lips, “But, I don’t want you to vanish, I want to hold on to this moment closer to my heart. It reminds me of something that I lost long time ago, and it's back again.”
“But?”, I hinted her that she did not complete what she wanted to say.
“If it was a real person, they won’t vanish. What else did you expect?" I could see that she was filled with love and a pink aura back of her head, she smiled even more, "I don’t want you to vanish. You are probably my lost love of my life that looks like a person. The unconditional love that I was sharing once with everyone. You might be my masculine side of mine.”
“But, you can try, because I’m a real human. I wont vanish.”, I said.
She immediately understood the same fear I have as hers and asked “Would you try to vanish me if you could?”, she knew I wouldn’t either. The golden hue started to spread around again in the sky from the eastern horizon, seems like the sun is already waking up yawning with golden breath. Out of 2 moons, Full moon was already gone out of the sky, and the other one has grew into half moon and it’s up above to the center of my crown.
There are very few dream, that you don't feel like waking up, not because of the people that you meet there, not because of the people you don't want to meet in real life, it's beyond that, it's beyond senses, maybe you confronted your other self, maybe I can call it as comfort living without having to fear what's happening next, the time feels still as if there is no tomorrow.
I was curious to learn more about what she was talking about, so I asked, “Do we have more time to complete your theory?”
I was curious to learn more about what she was talking about, so I asked, “Do we have more time to complete your theory?”
“Time to go, we may never meet again or even if we meet, we might not even recognize each other, both in dream and in reality, maybe I am not even from your world.” she wasn't in a hurry, but she knew exactly how much time she must be spending with me, and how much information that she can share with me.
I could see a smile in her face, but deep within I could feel melancholy, I could see that she wanted to share something with me, she took a deep breath, “This is love, just love, don’t tag it with any kind, motherly, sisterly, friendly, lover type, none of those needs to be tagged, it's all just one and the same, you just tag it and you slowly lose it, when the mind of the person that you once loved has changed.”
She was unconscious for a moment, which felt like eternity, where it felt like she was a robot who had lost her battery and stuck in the place, she came back to conscious "Anyone that you have loved before, you did not love them, you loved the feeling that you were having inside you. The nearer that you go to them, you realize that they are not what you thought once before." she paused and said "It hurts! it's not them who changed, it is you who changed the way you look at them and your love."
I haven’t probably woken up with such a relief, love and happiness filled with dreamy mood for a very long time. I remembered how once upon a time when I was a teenager, I felt the same feeling with a girl that I fell in love at the first sight, It was then a one sided love, she probably didn't care, but only stared deep into my mind and soul, all that I could see is love and probably the connection that I shared with her that goes beyond the physical world. It took me a decade to even approach her and talk to her. She is my wife now and we are nearing a decade after we married.
Along the way, I lost my path, I began to look at the flaws, while knowing the fact deep within me that everyone in this world is flawed, and yet they are perfect in their own way, the universe is perfectly in motion, every single moment, they are perfect. After all, we are all just humans, after all everyone knows that all that the other person need is love in their depth of their heart and nothing else matters.